I was going to post about my painting today but well, I slept in really late and only got a short amount of time to work on it with daylight so I've done the gems in various places on her and that's it...I figured I can wait till tomorrow to show that to you all.
To be honest I've been finding it really hard to work on the painting over the last few days: partly due to just working on it, or on it's tests, for so long I've gotten bored and because with everything else going on in my life I'm just not able to sit down and work. I feel like a deer caught in the headlights, I can't move, I can't get out of the way of my problems and I can't work on fixing them.
I've been trying to start up a business, selling my art on cards, but I've been ignoring the fact I need to make money to continue renting my flat and survive....I guess after two sluggish years of college I just really really want to progress a little and everything just feels like it keeps wanting to hull me back to the starting point.
So I was really hoping to just set up my business, make money through it and it will all be okay....heh, no idea how I thought that would work out. Now I'm going to try to make some money, get a part time job and hopefully get a grant or loan to help with the business.....I have no idea how I'll balance everything and the idea of spending another year or two filled with stress and working non stop after just doing that in college....It's not appealing, to say the least. heh, at least I don't have a social life to interrupt my working...yay...
Sorry, depressed rant over, though I could go on. guess I felt I should say where my life was at and I didn't really feel able to do that without some emotion creeping in. At least no one reads theses posts.
....I wonder if I should switch it to a blog post every two days, these are taking up more time in the day than I was expecting and trying to get things done for Christmas is eating up a lot of time.
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